fuck you too

 so i did this test today

it's a painful test if done correctly

probably just as painful if done incorrectly 

so this test is to find out just what kind of power a cyclist can produce 

in a 20 min effort

you can't really fail at this test

this morning i failed this test

who am i fooling

i been doing this shit for so long now and still have 

nearly 60 year old aspirations to be better than yesterday

maybe it's just not possible anymore

age, lack of time to train, running the money making treadmill harder than in my

20s, 30s, 40s.....

how come no one ever tells you about what life is like when you get old

it's fucking not for sissies

this shit gets more and more real

thankfully and i will extoll gracias to the moon

for i have it so easy and i understand it

it's still fucking tough this life thing

i get high with a little help from my friends 

most of my friends have been waiting in the wings for over 20 years

i left them all back in SF

i had to leave

it was for love

and it was worth it 

all the years and all the shit and all the striving

it all paid off

it worked 

we worked our fucking asses off

so yes, it has been difficult and easy as fuck compared to the rest of this world mess

and it's fucked up here believe me no excuses for the USA

so anyway

this cycling power test put things in perspective

i got a lot more work to do

friends and enemies beware

i will be back