your smiles recharge faith batteries
waking in through the door there are smiles
eyes twinkle my way
i've been away all day
there are moments like this scratched deep
my moments of sanity in a strange land
where everyone wants me to go home

my dream is home
going home
homecoming
reunion
see my family
live as it's lived
laugh and reconstruct memories together
i want so badly to be there with you
along with my family
so far away in so many ways
days to years on and on
rewrite the script
it includes this time together

savoring bits of family bliss

sickness

can't get it right
fight all day
fight away the nite
machine rages on scaring my back

take deep breathing lessons
sit budda crossed
light up
closing in on objective

sling sidelong
wheels spin in place
putting the same pieces together
over and over again

can't keep my mind's objective
slip sidelong
glass tractionless
frozen motion implosion

sit budda style
song plays out
clock ticking time away
dreams vaporizing

angry living leads to depressed
mental recess
crawl up
fetal sleep
dreams melt like snowflakes in august

slowdown

darkness hides the sun
still
looked like something would break
and it has
places change
nomad wanderer
the path continues
darkness hides the sun
feel your steps fall
there you go again
changing terrain
colors blend in the distance

edges

rat's ass
shove me away
one minute we was making love
next you're uptight
come on now baby
work out knots
orgasm, drugs, exercise
slip into something more comfortable
i trust your touch
make me
make it

blood in the breath

immigration lasting decades?
wasted time bottom line
time and time again
the ceiling keeps raising
putting pasts behind
us moving into darkness
throwing money problem's way
stands against bullies
backing down
running out bar tabs
running out on it all
walking back broken down
flatted starts
bittersweet victory's memory
fading love
falling flat
living contemplative
making a difference
listless moments
wasted
washed up and suitable for use
playing margins
executing game plans
putting bestlaid plans to rest
seeing light at tunnel's end
seeing darkness thereafter
kissing life's ass
getting kicked in the ass
kicking some ass in the process
screaming in a vacum
passing out in pain
lonely is living duty free
being alone happily connected universe
tears rolling
heart beats dripping
family unknow
restless requests
relentless requests
poor mannered bullshit
evil empire
keeping me from my loved ones
waiting in vain
Godot never comes
here come the no suprises
faith slipping
grip dripping
chronicle blood in the breath